I am simply me. No one special just human and real. I have a lot on my mind and many things that i think of day to day. The past couple of days I have been thinking of simple shit. Why I do the things I do? How can I tell someone the smartest of advice and then go back on what I just said and do the total opposite? I can sit and tell one person to follow their heart and don't let their minds over run what is real, but then I let my mind over power the truth that's in my heart. I have a good man. Smart, Intelligent, Caring, Kind, and wonderful man. But my actions a few days ago may have pushed him too far away. No, I didn't cheat on him or cuss him or disrespect him really, just a simple matter that I don't see to be as serious as others may seem to see it. I miss him now, I miss us. I got to see him maybe 15 minutes yesterday and it was our 1 month anniversary. That alone hurt me. Yes, for the most part I am a strong woman, and from time to time I can be evil as hell. But this man makes me weak. The thought of losing a man as good as him kills me inside. Yea, he says were good, but to me it doesn't feel like it did before I made this simple mistake. As I am only human, I do make mistakes. From those mistakes, it is up to me to learn, grow, and remember them to make myself a better person in the future. It is up to me not to make them mistakes again and to be a better person from them. I've talked so bad to so many ppl in my life that maybe Karma is coming back to leave me miserable for the rest of my life. I may lose him, and that is the last thing I want or need. I do care for this man, more than i can ever explain, but you cant make someone feel for u what you feel for them no matter how hard u try. You can't force someone to want u if they don't. You cant force someone to love u if they won't. You can only continue to strive to be the best person you can possibly be and hope that one day he or she will see the greatness in you and the love you have for them in your heart, in your soul. If I messed this relationship up for myself I'm done. I'll take a lil break from SL, and when/if I come back to sl there will be no more dating, relationships, none of that. This man is the best one I have ever been with on sl. And for me to do something so simple yet so stupid, is something I'll have to leave with. When you feel a strain on your relationship, Do your best to fix it, before its too late
Thanks for listening <3 Me
And that is all you can do. We are all responsible for our selves only. You can never make someone do anything; everything we do is conscious effort on our part. When things go wrong or don't work out, use it as a learning tool and raise your benchmark of consciousness. Never let things run you away; stand up tall, face the issue and keep it moving. We have all made bad choices that we regret, but life continues to move right along and that is what we have to do. We correct what we can, but the biggest thing you have to do to get over some humps in life is to forgive yourself, shift your mindset and do better next time...=)
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