So in my mind all i can say is this was the most cordial break up a person could ever have. No harsh words, still friends. But that doesnt make it any easier. Once I give u all of my heart, then there is where u stay. My tears fall like a lonely creek in the middle of a forbidden forest to be lost forever into the ocean of lonliness that lies ahead. He has my heart, still in his hands, I cant take it back because then it would mean that i have lost all hope. i never meant for this to happen, but then none of us ever do. I dont think i deserve the heartaches and pains that I have had to encounter. But who knows, maybe this is what is meant for me. I applaud him for being honest, and saying it in the best possible way that one could say I want to be single. Without making a big fuss or fight out of it i bowed out gracefully. Told him we'd forever remain friends, He is the father of my son regardless. Some would say, they wasnt together that long, why is she so upset, but u all fail to realize my feelings for him had started forming before we were together. He had found his way into my heart and just made my life shine when he asked me to be his. And yes, today is a dark cloudy day that im miserable in but Im still so happy and blessed to have him as a friend. Who knows if hell even take the time to read this, yes imma tag him init but who knows. If he does then ill know. Drew, You make my soul smile, when your around and were talking my joy comes shining through from the depths of my soul to the moon and beyond. Youre truly a wonderful man and when your ready for a relationship the one you choose will be the luckiest woman anyone will ever know. Your loving, caring, kind, and a wonderful boyfriend. I was lucky that you blessed my life for the time that u did. Yes, now I will admit to you now, my feelings for you are beyond sl, I was starting to get real feelings for you. Wait let me not lie, I have real feelings for you beyond sl. Some people already knew that lol. But i would never tell you. Now that I cant push you away being as your already away I can tell you. I truly love u Drew. Not IN LOVE with u but not too far from it.... Anyways, i should think of these tears that continue to roll down my face as tears of the joy to have been blessed with such a man as u in my life. They are tears of hurt that I couldnt be who or wat you needed. Not even that like Idk even know what to say now. Imma just let the words roll off my fingertips! :P But seriously, I will be fine, And youll always have one of the best friends a person could ever have in your life in me. You ever need me or anything that is in my power to give u im a message away. I cant even finish typin