today!

Well I feel like today is gonna be just one of those damn days. I woke up in a wonderful mood, but these thoughts in my head i just cant seem to get rid of. This just goes back to the blog i did about me giving advice that i cant hardly take for myself. You know the one where i said something along the lines of, Don't let your head outweigh the truth that's in your heart. But still, we all know that the thoughts of stupid shit keep playing over n over in your head u start to really believe them. I know deep inside my heart that they aren't true, its just time for me to learn how to wipe the thoughts from my head. So, I sit back, take a deep breathe, and realize that, My life at this moment is actually going pretty well, good man, good kids, good friends, but still these thoughts that play over n over in my mind like they do every single time are back to haunt me. Its up to me and only me on how I go about it. There's many different ways, I can act upon them and talk them out, just jump to conclusions and automatically believe them, or do the smart thing that i have been doing this whole time, and ignore them. Push them to the back of my mind and act like they don't exist, keep pushing forward and just enjoying the life that I have. Sometimes they all rush back forward at once and I get in one of those moods where I just don't want anyone around but him, but that doesn't mean that is what he will want ya know , on those days I just have to regroup, Sort through them all. and keep on keeping on. I have wonderful people in my life to whom I can talk to but at the same time I feel like they listen to me enough and I don't want to get on their nerves with it all. Its overwhelming for me at times, so I know to other people its like whoa, is she ever gonna shut up? Other days they be like. Girl if u don't stfu, I don't want to hear anything that your saying. lmao! I want to take the time now to thank those of you that do listen. Those that actually seem to care, listen, voice their opinions in ways that makes me open my eyes and see the bigger picture. So Thanks to you all... I love u all in a special way :*