Thoughts....

So as I was driving around this morning gettin some much needed me time I had so much shit goin thru my head. Like wtf am I even doing on sl? I sit and continue to let people in my heart, to love them unconditionally just to get slapped in the face and hurt... Yes we all know that the thoughts today were about my recent break up with Drew. He never intentionally hurt me. That was never his plan. Hes a good guy and I have nothing bad to say about him. Just "females" (imma call them females today insteada hoes) be flockin to these niggas like stink on shit. These same type of females dont  pay a nigga no attention til he get in a relationship then next thing u know, BAM, they all over the place. Never ceases to amaze me the way things happen.. But at the end of the day i have to sit and realize this. Maybe its not them "females" at all. In all actuality, maybe its me. Maybe im the one that just cant be the type of gf anyone wants, or needs for that matter. Its my own fault, I love those who dont love me. And probably never will. I let so many ppl in to my life, into my world, because my heart is too big. This isnt only about Drew and our break up tho. Ive had kids on this game that has ripped my heart out and hurt me more than anyone ever could.  U get close to these ppl and regardless of how many times people say "Sl is just sl" Fuck all that.. idgaf how many times u say that shit it still will not stop the fact that your a real person with real fuckin feelings behind that damn screen so stop telling yourself and others that its just fuckin sl.... ok? SMDH Im sick and tired of people being fake and acting like that all hard n shit when they know damn good and well that they be gettin feelings and emotions tied into things just as much as i do... Anyways this was so off subject... Its still a mth away before my colly starts the spring semester and i so cant freakin wait... Im sittin here waistin my time on sl and fb and to be honest... I HATE IT... Yea i so much hate it more now than I did cause I was dumped yet again, and this time it was to a man like no one i have ever met. So Kind, Gentle, Sweet, and all that wrapped into one... anyways :\ Once I start colly you will start to see less and less of me.. then this summer when I go to Maine I might not even take my computer. (knowing i will) But theres always that chance that Ill say fucc it and leave it.. We shall see as time progresses how things are.. Anyways this was random one again.. had my mind on wut i was gonna say and lost train of thought lmao bbl :)