Shit that annoys me part 2 (Vent Session)

Fuck Niggas... You kno the ones, the ones that never wanna talk unless they need summin from u or someone u kno!


Thirsty ass hoes..... Yea yall know the ones. That be tryna break up a relationship just so they can fuck with the nigga..


Crazy ass ex's... ya'll know the ones that come bacc just to get under the recents skin... then come bacc just to make all those emotions come bacc between them and the ex and get bacc together just to leave in the long run...


2face fake ass ppl... I hate when someone be hangin with u then turn around n talk shit about u... Nigga/Bitch if u didnt like me why the fucc u all in my face? FOH Man up and stop being pussy.. Anything u wanna say about me say it to me! Wut U scared? Dont be Im only fuccin human, My name isnt GOD so i shouldnt put fear in ya heart.


Stalkers! You know the ones that aint on ya friends list but have ppl comin back tellin them err thing u doin. Or they aint ya FB friend but they Subscribed to ya shit. Bitch u wanna know what im doin? ILL TELL U! IDGAF about u or ya feelinz so bring it.. I have nothin to hide, And if it is ya man im fuccin, Maybe u should take care of him and i wouldnt have to. :>


Scary ass ppl.... The ones that will talk mad shit about u behind your fuccin bacc then turn around and smile in ya face talkin bout no girl i aint got no problem with u... the whole while in they pplz box talkin shit.. Df can i do to yo lame retarded hooked on phonics ass? Im behind the screen... U think imma waste my time comin to see u when i can spend my money on a pedicure or gettin my hair did? U already a non mutha fuccin factor so there for no! Say wut u feel cause if i dont care for u trust u gon know.


ugh... theres plenty more but im tired and goin the fuck to sleep... ooo and another thing that annoys me... DONT LIKE THIS AND NOT COMMENT! GIMME YA THOUGHT AND FEED BACK. FFS! BYE

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Random tears slide down my face and  anger fills my heart. For many reasons I care not to discuss. I realized that a hardness is forming in my heart that may never soften even with the softest spring breeze or the most beautiful snow ever seen by man. This is the way I never wanted to turn. This is who I never wanted to become. I never wanted to start to not even care about certain people. Never wanted to get pissed off every time I see certain people and the way they act. Not everyone is like me. Not everyone can hold someone in their heart no matter what turn of events occur. Anyone who truly knows me, knows that once your inside my heart, there is where you will forever will remain. Ill always do what ever it takes to make you happy. Just know, Wit me you will forever have a friend! =]

See, Heres the thing, IDGAF! =]

So, in the days that have passed I have resolved past issues that I had with people. And in all honesty I feel so much better. I, as a woman, am trying to grow. And be the better person and squash beef with people. You see, I'm tired of fighting.  Half of you don't even care, but it has came to my attention that some people are more worried about what i do than they are worried about they own lives. Well let me start off by saying this, If you don't like what the fuck I do, then stop looking at what i'm doing! Remove your self from my life i.j.s. Its not for you to like or agree on to be honest... Other than my family there's only one person I'd feel lost without if I lost them and he knows who he is. People seem to think that I care if they are mad at me cause I'm friends with certain people, here's the thing. My friends are just that. MY FRIENDS. Meaning, you don't have to like them or deal with them. I don't understand why the fuck its that big of a deal that i don't fight with the people that u fight with. Mad cause now I'm not stuck up yo ass talking about them? What ya fail to realize is this  I.D.G.A.F. anymore... I'm tired of living my life for those of you who feel like I should live a certain way, be a certain way, and act a certain way. At some point in your life someone has to grow up and be the bigger person. And I'm sorry that that cant be you... This is subliminals either cause you all already know I do not give 2 fucks whose feelings I hurt, this is to ANYONE who has a problem with who I associate myself with. Doesn't mean that I am changing because I'm Not. Just means I'm Growing. Becoming wiser. Maybe one day soon those of you that are so worried about what Char is doing can grow and mature as well. I hope sooner than later so You yourself will see how much less stress it is. There's no sense in going around fighting with everyone you don't like on game because at the end of the day half ya'll wouldn't face none of em irl.... or if you have the same type of problems irl with someone you ain't gonna be worried about who they associate themselves with irl so how bout u not worry about them ppl on game either.... Stop worrying about what I'm doing, or what the people I associate with is doing for once and worry about yourself because in the end you might figure out that your the one that's been in the wrong the whole damn time.  My Life is mine to live and if i choose to live it with less fucking stress then that's what the hell i'm going to do ya heard?  Ya don't like it? Well guess what! ɢᴏ Fᴜᴄᴄ ʏᴀsᴇʟf!

Feeling............

Ever felt all alone in the world unless someone needs something from you? Maybe its just the holidays but i think i just came to the sick realization that I'm being used in so many damn ways and I'm the one that has sat around and allowed it to happen. Hell if someone was to do for me what I do for so many, I'd sit around and let them do it too... I'm so ignorant ugh! I sit and do so much for so many and half the time i hardly even get a ty... I'm never told I'm appreciated from those I feel I need to hear it from. And the ones I do hear it from don't even owe it to me. Then when ppl are done getting what they want from me its like the next day I don't even matter. ROFL Maybe its me and I'm Exaggerating a bit. Maybe its because the holidays is so near and I'm missing my niece more and more everyday. Its been 14 years since she was killed but it doesn't make each day without her any easier. Or Maybe its the fact that I do so much for so many and shit. I sit and open my heart to those who don't even deserve it. That don't appreciate it, but then when I turn into an evil bitch that only does for herself I'm wrong right? Well in the days to come right at the holidays and all I might just go back into fuck u mode.... It may be wrong to some but I'm so tired ya'll. My mind body soul and even my heart is wore out. I give my all to ppl that don't deserve and ounce of me. Which makes me over look the ones that deserve my all. I fall hard, I hate that I'm like that and its a hard thing to break, mostly because I don't know where to even begin, don't know where to go next with this shit. Everyone who knows me knows I am a very strong minded and strong willed person. But I'm weak over a man that doesn't even deserve my weakness. Weak over a man that doesn't appreciate me, doesn't even care about me. If I was to disappear off sl half of u reading this wouldn't even notice, or even care for that matter. The ones that would notice, would call or summin.. But as far as the ones that i give my all to and my heart to  that I wish nothing but the best for and wish I could just express to them how I feel about them and it would all go back to the way it was. I wish someday's I could cover my heart and he wouldn't be in it anymore. Yes, I love this man, and I shouldn't. You can't help who u love that's the truth fasho. He has a hold on me, Like someday's I want to just walk away and heal myself, other days I just love being around him. I have fun with him, but at the same time I've realized, You never know what you've got until its gone, and once I'm gone that's when A LOT of people will realize that this woman right here, did more for them than any one else. So now I'm fadin in the black and becomin scarce to those who don't deserve me.

Thoughts....

So as I was driving around this morning gettin some much needed me time I had so much shit goin thru my head. Like wtf am I even doing on sl? I sit and continue to let people in my heart, to love them unconditionally just to get slapped in the face and hurt... Yes we all know that the thoughts today were about my recent break up with Drew. He never intentionally hurt me. That was never his plan. Hes a good guy and I have nothing bad to say about him. Just "females" (imma call them females today insteada hoes) be flockin to these niggas like stink on shit. These same type of females dont  pay a nigga no attention til he get in a relationship then next thing u know, BAM, they all over the place. Never ceases to amaze me the way things happen.. But at the end of the day i have to sit and realize this. Maybe its not them "females" at all. In all actuality, maybe its me. Maybe im the one that just cant be the type of gf anyone wants, or needs for that matter. Its my own fault, I love those who dont love me. And probably never will. I let so many ppl in to my life, into my world, because my heart is too big. This isnt only about Drew and our break up tho. Ive had kids on this game that has ripped my heart out and hurt me more than anyone ever could.  U get close to these ppl and regardless of how many times people say "Sl is just sl" Fuck all that.. idgaf how many times u say that shit it still will not stop the fact that your a real person with real fuckin feelings behind that damn screen so stop telling yourself and others that its just fuckin sl.... ok? SMDH Im sick and tired of people being fake and acting like that all hard n shit when they know damn good and well that they be gettin feelings and emotions tied into things just as much as i do... Anyways this was so off subject... Its still a mth away before my colly starts the spring semester and i so cant freakin wait... Im sittin here waistin my time on sl and fb and to be honest... I HATE IT... Yea i so much hate it more now than I did cause I was dumped yet again, and this time it was to a man like no one i have ever met. So Kind, Gentle, Sweet, and all that wrapped into one... anyways :\ Once I start colly you will start to see less and less of me.. then this summer when I go to Maine I might not even take my computer. (knowing i will) But theres always that chance that Ill say fucc it and leave it.. We shall see as time progresses how things are.. Anyways this was random one again.. had my mind on wut i was gonna say and lost train of thought lmao bbl :)

So in my mind all i can say is this was the most cordial break up a person could ever have. No harsh words, still friends. But that doesnt make it any easier. Once I give u all of my heart, then there is where u stay. My tears fall like a lonely creek in the middle of a forbidden forest to be lost forever into the ocean of lonliness that lies ahead. He has my heart, still in his hands, I cant take it back because then it would mean that i have lost all hope. i never meant for this to happen, but then none of us ever do. I dont think i deserve the heartaches and pains that I have had to encounter. But who knows, maybe this is what is meant for me. I applaud him for being honest, and saying it in the best possible way that one could say I want to be single. Without making a big fuss or fight out of it i bowed out gracefully. Told him we'd forever remain friends, He is the father of my son regardless. Some would say, they wasnt together that long, why is she so upset, but u all fail to realize my feelings for him had started forming before we were together. He had found his way into my heart and just made my life shine when he asked me to be his. And yes, today is a dark cloudy day that im miserable in but Im still so happy and blessed to have him as a friend. Who knows if hell even take the time to read this, yes imma tag him init but who knows. If he does then ill know. Drew, You make my soul smile, when your around and were talking my joy comes shining through from the depths of my soul to the moon and beyond. Youre truly a wonderful man and when your ready for a relationship the one you choose will be the luckiest woman anyone will ever know. Your loving, caring, kind, and a wonderful boyfriend. I was lucky that you blessed my life for the time that u did. Yes, now I will admit to you now, my feelings for you are beyond sl, I was starting to get real feelings for you. Wait let me not lie, I have real feelings for you beyond sl. Some people already knew that lol. But i would never tell you. Now that I cant push you away being as your already away I can tell you. I truly love u Drew. Not IN LOVE with u but not too far from it.... Anyways, i should think of these tears that continue to roll down my face as tears of the joy to have been blessed with such a man as u in my life. They are tears of hurt that I couldnt be who or wat you needed. Not even that like Idk even know what to say now. Imma just let the words roll off my fingertips! :P But seriously, I will be fine, And youll always have one of the best friends a person could ever have in your life in me. You ever need me or anything that is in my power to give u im a message away. I cant even finish typin

Sometimes u feel alone

ᴇᴠᴇʀ ғᴇʟᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ, sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs ᴜʀ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ, ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴡᴏᴏʙʟᴇʏ ʟɪᴍʙ, ᴏғ ᴀɴ ᴏʟᴅ ᴀss ʜᴜɢᴇ ᴛʀᴇᴇ, ᴀɴᴅ ɪᴛs ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴇʀɢᴇ ᴏғ ʙʀᴇᴀᴋɪɴɢ... ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀғʀᴀɪᴅ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪғ ᴜ ᴍᴏᴠᴇ ɪᴛs ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ᴏғ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏ ᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ʙᴇᴇɴ ʜᴏʟᴅɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ғᴏʀ sᴏ ʟᴏɴɢ? sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs ɪɴ ʟɪғᴇ ᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇ ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ᴘᴀᴛʜ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ, ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ʙʀɪᴅɢᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴜʀɴ, ᴀɴᴅ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ ᴀʟʟ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ. ɪ ᴋɴᴏ ɪᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ᴀʟᴏɴᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ɪᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜʀɴ, ᴡʜᴏ ᴛᴏ ᴛʀᴜsᴛ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴅᴏ, ᴡʜᴀᴛ  ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ, ᴏʀ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ. ᴀʟʟ ɪ ɢᴏᴛ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴛʜɪs ʙʟᴏɢ ɪs ᴍʏ sᴍɪʟᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴛᴇᴀʀs ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴏɴᴇ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴍᴇ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴛʜᴀɴ ɢᴏᴅ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʜᴇ ᴄᴀʟʟs ᴍᴇ ʜᴏᴍᴇ. ᴡʜɪᴄʜ ɴᴏ ᴏɴᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴋɴᴏᴡs ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ʙᴇ. ᴀ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ʜᴀs ᴛᴏ sɪᴛ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴᴛs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʟɪᴠᴇs ᴀɴᴅ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀ ɪғ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡᴀs ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ᴀ ᴘᴀsᴛ ʟɪғᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɪғ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅɪᴅ ʙᴀᴅ ᴛʜɪɴɢs ᴛʜᴀᴛs ʜᴀᴜɴᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇᴍ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄᴜʀʀᴇɴᴛ ʟɪғᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ ʟɪᴠᴇ. ʏᴇᴀ, ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʙᴇ ᴇᴠɪʟ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴀʀᴇ ᴇᴠɪʟ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴏsᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴛʀᴜʟʏ ᴋɴᴏ ᴍᴇ... ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴡʜᴏ ɪ ᴀᴍ.... ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴀ ᴡᴏɴᴅᴇʀғᴜʟ, ʟᴏᴠɪɴɢ, ᴄᴀʀɪɴɢ ᴘᴇʀsᴏɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɪғ ɪᴛs ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇɪʀ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜ. ɪᴠᴇ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇᴇɴ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ ʙᴜᴛ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ɪ ɪɴᴛᴇʀᴀᴄᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏɴ ᴀ ᴅᴀɪʟʏ ʙᴀsɪs. ɪ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴜɴᴅᴇʀsᴛᴀɴᴅ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴅᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ɪ ɢᴇᴛ ᴛʀᴇᴀᴛᴇᴅ ᴀᴛ ᴛɪᴍᴇs. ɪ ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴜ ᴀɴᴅ ᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ɪᴛ ᴀʟʟ, ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ʙɪᴛs ɴ ᴘɪᴇᴄᴇs ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀ ғʀᴀᴄᴛɪᴏɴ ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟʟ ᴏғ ɪᴛ. ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ sᴏᴍᴇᴛɪᴍᴇs ʙᴜᴛ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ. ᴜ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʟʟ sᴛᴀʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ʀᴇɢᴀʀᴅʟᴇss ᴏғ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ғᴜᴛᴜʀᴇ ʜᴏʟᴅs, ʙᴜᴛ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ɪғ ᴜ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴍᴇ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟɪғᴇ ᴏʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʙᴏᴛʜᴇʀᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ᴘʟᴀʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍʏ ᴇᴍᴏᴛɪᴏɴs, ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ, ᴛʜᴀᴛs ᴀʟʟ ɪ ᴀsᴋ. ɪᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɴ ʙᴇɢ ᴀɴʏᴏɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ʟɪғᴇ, ɪᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ɢᴏɴ sᴄʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴀɴᴅ ʏᴇʟʟ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀᴄᴛ ᴀ ғᴏᴏʟ.. ʏᴇs ɪ ᴍᴀʏ ʙᴇ ʜᴜʀᴛ, ʏᴇs ɪ ᴍᴀʏ ᴄʀʏ sɪʟᴇɴᴛ ᴛᴇᴀʀs ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴏɴʟʏ ɪ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ, ʙᴜᴛ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇɴᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʜᴀᴘᴘɪɴᴇss ɪs ᴍᴏʀᴇ ɪᴍᴘᴏʀᴛᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴍʏ ᴏᴡɴ. ɪ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʀᴀᴛʜᴇʀ ᴜ ʙᴇ ʜᴀᴘᴘʏ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴍᴇ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴛʜᴀɴ ᴍɪsᴇʀᴀʙʟᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ ɪɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟɪғᴇ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪ ᴀᴍ ᴍᴇᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ sᴏᴍᴇᴏɴᴇ ɪᴍ ɴᴏᴛ. ᴍᴀʏʙᴇ ɪᴍ sᴜᴘᴘᴏsᴇ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴛʀᴜʟʏ ᴇᴠɪʟ.. ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴄᴀɴᴛ ʙᴇ... ᴀɴʏᴡᴀʏs... ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ɴɪɢʜᴛ... ɪ ᴄᴀɴᴛ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴀᴛᴍ

today!

Well I feel like today is gonna be just one of those damn days. I woke up in a wonderful mood, but these thoughts in my head i just cant seem to get rid of. This just goes back to the blog i did about me giving advice that i cant hardly take for myself. You know the one where i said something along the lines of, Don't let your head outweigh the truth that's in your heart. But still, we all know that the thoughts of stupid shit keep playing over n over in your head u start to really believe them. I know deep inside my heart that they aren't true, its just time for me to learn how to wipe the thoughts from my head. So, I sit back, take a deep breathe, and realize that, My life at this moment is actually going pretty well, good man, good kids, good friends, but still these thoughts that play over n over in my mind like they do every single time are back to haunt me. Its up to me and only me on how I go about it. There's many different ways, I can act upon them and talk them out, just jump to conclusions and automatically believe them, or do the smart thing that i have been doing this whole time, and ignore them. Push them to the back of my mind and act like they don't exist, keep pushing forward and just enjoying the life that I have. Sometimes they all rush back forward at once and I get in one of those moods where I just don't want anyone around but him, but that doesn't mean that is what he will want ya know , on those days I just have to regroup, Sort through them all. and keep on keeping on. I have wonderful people in my life to whom I can talk to but at the same time I feel like they listen to me enough and I don't want to get on their nerves with it all. Its overwhelming for me at times, so I know to other people its like whoa, is she ever gonna shut up? Other days they be like. Girl if u don't stfu, I don't want to hear anything that your saying. lmao! I want to take the time now to thank those of you that do listen. Those that actually seem to care, listen, voice their opinions in ways that makes me open my eyes and see the bigger picture. So Thanks to you all... I love u all in a special way :*

Things that annoy me!

So, Ive sat and sat and realized some shit that annoys the fuck out of me.


1.        When u think u ballin cause u got 1k.... foh, my hair alone cost half that!
2.        When u think u kno so much about me cause u saw some 2 yr old pics.                         Nigga get a life outside of keepin my name on the tip of your tongue! Damn my clit must taste like some chocolate n strawberries!
3.         When u forever commenting on my page and idk a mutha fuccin thing about u! who u are where you came from or any of that... stalk much?
4.        When ppl dont understand how annoying  they very existance can be. Its like when u dont want someone around they always there!
5.        How about when, ppl think they hurt u by tellin u to suck a dick???!!!?? Nigga imma bitch, u act like suckin dick is a bad thing. Why u threathening me wit a good fuccin time... Ask my man, he knows! smdh
6.    yo i cant think of anything else lmao but imma just be random now




How bout when ppl try to be sumthing their not.. Like We already kno that I will tell u imma big girl irl.. so wut who cares, but why try to play off someone elses pictures my nigga? Like u postin up pics but wont ever get on cam even for a person of the same sex just to verify that u are who u say u are.
Or when niggas/bitches be talkin bout how much they love they mate, and fuck around on them and fuck it up for someone else. Like you have a good nigga/bitch and u fuck around on them just cause u can and u wanna be a thirsty ass hoe/dog. Sit cho ass still and behave for once. It wont hurt u to be in a one man/woman relationship for once in ya miserable lil life.
oooo And another thing, When u and someone break up, that means it didnt fuckin work out. When they get in a relationship with someone else, who is good to them, then just be fuccin happy for them. dont come back in the picture, after wards talkin bout how much u love n miss them. If u truly love them then u will be happy for them and not try to fuck the good thing they have up.. makes no sense. You leave them but cant no one else have them? GTFOH!This shit is rollin off my fingers so imma continue on!
You claim to be a friend of mine, or anyones for that matter, and you dont even talk to them, but as soon as yo ass gets in some kinda trouble/drama first thing u wanna do is be like AYO such and such fuccin with me.. Well man df up and handle it. I cant fight all yo battles myself i got enough haters that i have to deal with without having to deal with yo shit.
Indirect comments/Posts... If you got summin to say to someone then by all means blast that shit out. Dont make indirect comments and post to ppl when they gonna end up figuring the shit out in the first fuckin place... Be a MAN/WOMAN and just put it out there so hell the rest of us can have fun clownin too :| Not like they asses can slap u fa real... your behind a pc screen unless u summin like me and give ya address.... :|
You dont like summin i have to say then by all means, express yo opinions, just dont be mad when it hurts ya feelinz that i express my fuccin opinion right df back... now with all this being sed, im done with this blog... -over n out- lmaoooooooooooo! 

today!

So, ofc i started the day like any normal day, 6:45 wake up, take a shower n stuff, get online and talk to my bae until time to wake madi up, which i let her sleep in 15 minutes more, go get Tyrek and take them to school... Only today was different than most days. I get to Tyreks house and his dad and they neighbor standin outside waiting on me.  So Tyreks dads home boy says to me "I got a hard tongue." I was like welp sucks for u, This dude gon say "What if i put it all over your warm body inside and out?" So I yawned... He sed, "Oh, so you cant help me?" I was like nah nigga u good. Then Tyreks dad says, "She got her a nigga ova in the UK!" Dude gon say," Yea well they tell me I can do it betta than them Europe niggas!" I tell him well how bout u go ahead and go to "them" cause Im not interested. He go continue on and be like, "So if you woulda answered ya door this morning I woulda surprised u." Im not I didnt answer my door because it was you!... Hes like, "damn that cruel" Im like yea and have a good day and drove off. 
So I take the kids on to school, and go to the colly to do my placement tests, Which i aced BTW! And I go by to see my moms at work, Go to burger king because I was wanting a Mocha Joe for some reason, and I come on home. And low and behold! Guess whose car is sitting across from my fuccin front door!!! The dude from my homebois house when i picked up Tyrek!!!! I'm like damn stalker much and i run in the house and lock the door, yea he knocked and i just looked at him thru my blinds and waved :\ DFOH!!!! 
Then I'm sitting on FB and someone messages me askin me if they could use my picture as they display pic for a week, I told em yea cause im that damn sexi but in the back of my mind im wondering "Ummmm WHY?" Why would any man want to use a females profile picture as they own unless they were married to them of obsessed with them?? Shrugs who knows but I felt honored it was me ROFL!!! 
Thennnnn to top it all off i get on my white girl swagg with my god baby Milly and we just straight wilin singin white ppl songs, KNOWIN I cant sing worth a fuckkkkkkkkkkk! lml.. I bet Millys ear drums busted and she layin there bleeding from here ears n shit! DEAD 


Anyways... This is a short blog... Quickie but Goodie cause im great like that!! rofl... Keep tuned u kno ill blog more later! <3

What a great day!!!

What a wonderful day today turned out to be!!!! It started off by me wakin up @ 2am for no reason but I got to talk to my bae so it made it worth it! Hes like wth u doin up??!!?? and so i went back to bed lml! Then i woke up at 7 am and just stayed up cause it was about time for me to get up anyways. I took a shower, done the norm routine, sat and talked to Drew until time to get madison up, woke her, took her to school, paid my bills, came home, and cleaned the house then hopped online to spend time with Drew. We spent the whole day together it was fabulous!!! We ended up goin to the xcite store with my bestums Frankie... OH EM GEE that was a trip i could replay over n over n over... they had me rollin the whole time we were there!!! Frankie randomly huggin random ass noobs that was followin they girl around like they was a lost fuccin puppy on a leash LML!
Then I stream up at the house with Drew, Leon, Cav, Snow, Dede, and Skyy..... i was in #BashmentMode we had a blast! I had Cav in pure shock!!!! 
Then Drew and I went to Cannibal Island where he tried to kill me by flying me into rocks on a hovercraft.. =\ roflmao but then we snuggled next to a campfire in a sleeping bag straight chillin like no one else mattered. Just lying in each others arms like we were the only ones that existed.
Then, some idiot hadda ruin it all by being in booty talkin shit. So we went there of course where this nigga was being molly whopped by my daughter in law :> #NotNice all day everyday rl talk... How a nigga with a bigga ass than me, more makeup than me and physics on wearing a purple trench coat gonna try to clown anyone? ROFL ol broke back mountain ass nigga! roflmaoooooo 


anyways, theres 2 morals to this story, I got to spend all day with my baby! Part of the day with ones that mean the world to me, and got to slap a couple niggas in the process so it was a wonderful day!!! This one bored yall huh? roflllll!!!

Important Ppl in my life!

So This is the time i blog about the important ppl in my life!!! 




First, I have to start with Cavarli Clarrington aka Omnipotent Prestige aka Cav bear aka My beyonda bestee!!! lool
Cav bear has been many things in my life. Started off as my lil cuzzo, then my gson, then my nephew, but now he is just above and beyond all that. We cant even give each other titles because any of them would be a lie.. were too close for that. Cavarli means so much to me and Id give him the world, moon, stars, and all that he ever wanted if it was in my power. Id walk thru the depths of hail just to have his back, to save him, to fight for him, anything he needed. This man is in my heart, in my soul, and i love him to my core. You ever mess with him, he knows who to come to and hes seen first hand how i go in for him.


Rachelle! Yeshhhhhhh lawddddddd knows this is my main bitch right here... I wish a mutha fucca would try to go in on her or on me cause we will kill mutha fuccas ova each otha. Shes now my daughter in law and im happy that she is. Shes been many things to me in the past 2 years of us being so close but theres not a day that goes by that we dont talk, that we dont see each other, that were not clowin on some poor soul. Without here my life would be bland. She knows where she stands with me and its so wonderful that she knows i love and appreciate everything about her and everything that she has done for me without me saying a word. But im tellin u.. outta all females i been cool with this one here will always outstand most!


Elspeth! LML.. This woman here... Shes now my mumz in law! I'm so happy to have her in my life and much more happier that shes my mum. She keeps me rollin.. Mad funny!!!! She never could understand something about me until she went thru the same situation herself, but now that we both experienced it she totally understands. She welcomed me into her family with open arms and knows i will never do anything to hurt her son. Shes happy im with him and i am happy as well. But anyways, Lemme tell u how much I care for this woman. I would slap the devil in his own kitchen while he cookin ova her. IDC who u are u mess with her and u are in for the rest of ya sl days to be miserable  and thats a fuccin fact. She has never been nothing but good to me. And my gawd can she sang!!! lml. This my mum in law fa life. no matter wut i kno shes there for me!!!


Dede!!! :D! One of my newest bestees!  I truly believe her and I are alot alike. Her heart is big as gold and she appreciates things that people do for her. Just like me! But on a serious tip. Dede and i came in contact by chance. Our men are like best friends irl and thats how i came to know this womderful woman. I am glad she is now a part of my life because I finally have someone i can relate to, someone to talk to that will actually listen and give me her input. I love u Dede and i hope that i never lose u out my life!


Leon!!!!!!! oot oot ! This negro right here is fulla jokes.. Theres not a time that i dont talk to him that i dont laugh. He and my bae are like brothas on some rl shit. But im also glad to have met him because he will always make u laugh no matter wut type of mood u are in. I claimed him as my bestee and sed i wouldnt take no for an answer. He hardly claims me as bestee but my rl daughter is his bestie so that works lmao!!! But fa real.. Glad to have u in my life Negro!


Technine! :D!:D! Myyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy Bestest bestie besitosssssssssssss! I asked him a few mths ago to be my bestie because the one i had always hit on me :| We made an agreement from the begininng that we would always cherish our friendship more than anything else and we wouldnt ever go outside those boundries. Hes been there for me always even when i neglect him. I apologize for all those times i looked out for just me and left u in the shadows! I love u Techie pooh!


Frankieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my turtle!!! :P This isnt my bestie, or besitos or none that! This is my BESTUMS! lool  We hung out one night and hes the only one i get on cam for... Nothing nasty eitha :| but i trust him enough to do that! We decided from that moment on we would be bestums! Weve been thru alot of shit together and problably will alot more but hes always gon be my bestums so back off!!

This is the beginning of a wonderful blog to be continued but first i have to say summin about my bae!!!


Drew!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D The things i can say abotu this man still wouldnt compare to the way I feel about him. When hes near i still feel the butterflies in my stomache. When hes away i feel so alone but thoughts of him replay in my mind. I think about him 24-7 and its the same for him. He makes my heart skip a beat everytime he tells me he loves me. We sit and talk about anything or just sit around each other just to be in each others presence. Hes like the ying to my yang yannoe.. This my love my heart my being.. Anyone tries to mess this up its a bad fuccin day!! rl talk!! 


ok enough for now <3

Family!!!!!!!!!!!

Well lemme start off with no one can beat my family. I am part of alot of families actually. First Raze then Abonwood-Ross Then wonder then Flex/Humpheys.... and the list can go on lol. My brothers mean everything to me Drama, Trouble, & Luis.. They are Cruical, and you mess with me youve had a bad day with them, and the same is vica versa u mess with them your in for it with me. Then theres my sistaz Chasity, Enchant, & Queen. Them girls right there are in my heart forever! Like with out them a part of me would die. Before i continue on im goin to tell u the story behind me and these 6 people. First starts with Luis.. I met him around 8 years ago on yahoo. He and I been tight as fucc err since! Like we've been into it with each other and over each other. Theres not a day in my life that i feel like he has forgotten about me or neglected me. He appreciates me and I appreciate him. Together we will always stand strong! Drama and Trouble.... LAWDDDDDDDDDDDDD i will neva forget the day I was in Uc with them and Serios. It was me n Queen and boiiii did she want some serios lmao!!! but thats off subject... We chilled with them and then i was like so when we can be in K.O.K. They gon say to me.. We u prove u can fight :\ yea they didnt kno me very well!  So the next argument they get into and guess who they tp ME :D  and I shut the whole shit down.. lol every since that moment we been tight... They exs was tryna claim me as they sister and Drama and Trouble was like nahhhh u cant have her she our sister and thats how i became they sis. Chasity is Drama and Trouble sis so we adopted each other. Enchant is my old dads daughter and she became my sis that wasy, we just will always be sisters. Queeny pooh... hmmm i cant even recall how we met to be honest, I just know we clicked from day one! Yea we had our ups and downs been into it more than once Said foul things about each other but at the end of the day thats my heart and we will never fight again and we will always stay strong together...#NotNice


Now to my kids....... I'll start with Qtee who has been my child the longest. She came into my life just by sure luck. Shes been my daughter 2 yrs now and thats my world. Then Snow and Kandi came in my life as a packaged deal lool and u kno me i dont mind that they are what makes my world go round. Snow  and i are close as hell Were like one in the same! Kendra is snows twin so u kno thats a given she my child. Then theres Gooniie, lawd my demon child! I took him as my child cause he made me happy. Made me smile and was just as evil as i am lool thats now and forever my punkin booty baby. Then theres Trey.. He and Marquise were twins.. Marq got banned and it was hard for trey at first to stay my son, but in the end we missed each other too much so we had to re-unite thats my heart and i never want to lose him.. Then Juelz is my prim baby he came from love that ended in disaster. Then theres Dajah\ Arii and babidoll... Their dad wanted to adopt them so bad and u kno i  am all about family so i was with it. I would never change my decision on that for anything in the world. Those 2 right there would make u smile even if ya house was in flames!!!! which they have done lool Then Dmarco Dmarcus Dmarius are the triplets on which i gave birth to... ppl were playin them but they disappeared! Then Anthonio.. we bump heads alot but thats my heart. Then Kiya.. she was my step daughter for 2 yrs, her mom left the game so she and i decided id just go ahead and be her mom... Then Brady lawddddddddddd this boi right here can sang!!! and make u smile. Hes so much like his dad its scary actually!!! They both funny as hell but can make u mad in 2.5 seconds when they together tryin to play around lmfao!!!


My heads startin to hurt so imma end this blog for now and continue on later maybe :\

Simply me

I am simply me. No one special just human and real. I have a lot on my mind and many things that i think of day to day. The past couple of days I have been thinking of simple shit. Why I do the things I do? How can I tell someone the smartest of advice and then go back on what I just said and do the total opposite? I can sit and tell one person to follow their heart and don't let their minds over run what is real, but then I let my mind over power the truth that's in my heart. I have a good man. Smart, Intelligent, Caring, Kind, and wonderful man. But my actions a few days ago may have pushed him too far away. No, I didn't cheat on him or cuss him or disrespect him really, just a simple matter that I don't see to be as serious as others may seem to see it. I miss him now, I miss us. I got to see him maybe 15 minutes yesterday and it was our 1 month anniversary. That alone hurt me. Yes, for the most part I am a strong woman, and from time to time I can be evil as hell. But this man makes me weak. The thought of losing a man as good as him kills me inside. Yea, he says were good, but to me it doesn't feel like it did before I made this simple mistake. As I am only human, I do make mistakes. From those mistakes, it is up to me to learn, grow, and remember them to make myself a better person in the future. It is up to me not to make them mistakes again and to be a better person from them. I've talked so bad to so many ppl in my life that maybe Karma is coming back to leave me miserable for the rest of my life. I may lose him, and that is the last thing I want or need. I do care for this man, more than i can ever explain, but you cant make someone feel for u what you feel for them no matter how hard u try. You can't force someone to want u if they don't. You cant force someone to love u if they won't. You can only continue to strive to be the best person you can possibly be and hope that one day he or she will see the greatness in you and the love you have for them in your heart, in your soul. If I messed this relationship up for myself I'm done. I'll take a lil break from SL, and when/if I come back to sl there will be no more dating, relationships, none of that. This man is the best one I have ever been with on sl. And for me to do something so simple yet so stupid, is something I'll have to leave with. When you feel a strain on your relationship, Do your best to fix it, before its too late
Thanks for listening <3 Me

Just Because I can

I decided to just blog because i can. Its my god given right! lmao But I sit and think about the things I've done in life and what my future holds and I'm not even sure where to begin. I've walked from Kentucky to Tennessee in a snow storm. Been Shot at, in abusive relationships, along with many other things I care not to discuss here. I'm a single mom who is falling for a younger man that lives outside of the United States... Shh I already know some of ya'lls opinions on that matter and personally I really dont care. Its my life to live so Imma live it. He makes me smile again and he makes me happy so idgaf :)..... Now with that being said Imma finish this blog lol....  I've met alot of interesting people in my life on sl and irl.  Been from Canada, down to fl, over to ill, to Mississippi and back to NC. Done alot of things I'm not proud of and alot of things that has made my life wonderful. And thru it all I've always Kept it real! Never once claimed to be something or someone I'm not. I dont care what people think of me anymore. I used to, but realized that I am the one that is responsible for my own happiness. No One can make me or break me but me. Someone can only do to me wut I allow them to do to me. The words that you say to me just roll off my shoulders and in the IDGAF about u bucket... :) I never claimed to be Beautiful, skinny, or any of the such, I am me, and I am real. I will be the first to tell u anything u want to kno about me i have nothing to hide. Im trill Im honest and thats all that matters. Yes, Im a single mom irl, Yes, Imma Big girl (on a diet) but yea im big. Im not model type pretty, Pretty in my own way, but not no barbie bitch. Once u make it into my heart, my heart is pure, and there is where u stay. I am sort of a push over once I love u you are loved for life. You'll always be there in my heart! I have cussed people out one day and been they friend the next, that just because I dont hold grudges... Im not letting anyone have that much of my energy to hate u for that long. I've been in relationships on sl that didnt mean as much to the other person as they did to me... But that was only to make me stronger and teach me lessons that i needed to learn before I got into the relationship with the wonderful man that im now in a relationship with. He just makes me all giggly inside. Anyways, were not gonna get back into the relationship again. lol! But anyways, Enough of this random typa bullshit Im done with this blog... Its all random as hellllllll but who gives a shit! :D

To Him!

I sit back and think of how it all started. We were just cool, and spoke when we saw each other. Then i was yo "hillbilly" amd u was my "Drew Bew". Then we was playin around and got into a relationship on fb just playin around. From that day forward we hung tight and we became "boothangs". Then on the 29th of October, you asked me for my partner box. I thought u was jokin and u told me u was serious. So I partnered you. Then Leon was like yea when yall gonna make it offical, and I said, " When he asks me!" Then next thing i kno you was like " Yea i been waiting for the right time to ask, Do you want to make it offical?" I got all silent and shit cause i was blushin and speechless at the same time lol. Then I was like of course I want to be official. From that day forward I have truly been happy. Like you said we have our ups and down but mostly ups. I make mistakes just like the next person. Neither of us are perfect, we will have our downfalls but we both are strong enough to work through them. You will never know what you mean to me because theres not enough words, expressions, or actions in this lifetime that will show the way i feel for u. I've never had a man in my life that I've truly been able to trust until now. You are that imperfect person that I see perfectly and I hope and pray that my actions dont scare u away. Drew, I promise from this day forward if theres any way possible i will never do anything to hurt u, to disappoint u, or to get u upset to the point where you dont talk to me. My eyes were opened up last night, and they will never be closed again. You make me truly happy bae and without u in my life i dont kno how i survived this long. But god truly did bless the broken road that lead me straight to u. We came into each others lives for a reason, and that reason for me is to show me how to love again. Thank you baby, for just being you, for loving me the way im suppose to be loved, and for never hurting me. I love u Drew Genna <3